Saturday 11 July 2009

Get to know myself better !!!!

I took the personality test at http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx and well the results is amazing true. I agree with most of the statements :).Check out !!

The result :

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Saturday 30 May 2009

thinking...

Sitting down doing nothing but only thinking..
Well i have a lot of things in mind now..
1st in the list is SOCA !!!
Wat can i say..i am going to have exam tomorrow but i am just feeling so so lazy to do any work.:(
2nd i am having the excitement of going back to celebrate my birthday and meeting up with my best best buddies..
3rd i am thinking of my polar bear..hmmm..thought of messaging him to remind him to post my birthday gift but then i just decided not to because i don't have credit to do so..:(
hehe..well i actually got lots more in my mind..maybe next time i will write them down..:)

Thursday 21 May 2009

JOKES !!!!

Two adventurers John and Jack were hunting for gold in the desert. After roaming all day long under the hot sun, they set up their tent and fell asleep. Some hours later, John woke up his friend.

"Jack, look up at the sky and tell me what you see."

Jack looked up and replied, "I can see millions of stars."

"What does that tell you?" asked John.Jack thought for a minute and said."Astronomically speaking, it tells me that there are millions of galaxies and potentially billions of planets. Astrologically, it tells me that Saturn is in Leo. Time wise, it appears to be approximately a quarter past three. Theologically, it's evident the Lord is all powerful and we are small and insignificant. Meteorologically, it seems we will have a beautiful day tomorrow. What does it tell you?"

After a moment of silence, John spoke.

"It tells two things to me. First is that...you are an idiot."

Jack looked at John, surprised. "Why do you say so?" he said.

"Because it has still not occurred to you that someone has stolen our tent." replied John.

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Tom and Timothy were in the same regiment in the army. They were inseparable friends and spent their evenings drinking together. After retirement, they went to different states and settled. However, they kept correspondence through letters and e-mails.

To keep the memory of their boozing bouts alive, Tom always filled two glasses with rum and water and sipped from each alternately!

When somebody asked him why he did so, he explained: 'This glass is Timothy's; this one is mine. So I take a sip from each - one on behalf of Timothy, the other for myself.'

Suddenly one evening Tom was seen with only one glass on his table. He was asked what had happened. He replied, 'You see, I have given up drinking but Timothy has written that he has not. So I have put away my glass and drink only on behalf of my friend.

Bingen on the Rhine

A SOLDIER of the Legion lay dying in Algiers,
There was a lack of woman's nursing, there was dearth of woman's tears;
But a comrade stood beside him, while his lifeblood ebbed away,
And bent with pitying glances, to hear what he might say.
The dying soldier faltered, and he took that comrade's hand,
And he said, "I nevermore shall see my own, my native land:
Take a message, and a token, to some distant friends of mine,
For I was born at Bingen, -- at Bingen on the Rhine.

"Tell my brothers and companions, when they meet and crowd around,
To hear my mournful story, in the pleasant vineyard ground,
That we fought the battle bravely, and when the day was done,
Full many a corpse lay ghastly pale beneath the setting sun;
And, mid the dead and dying, were some grown old in wars, --
The death-wound on their gallant breasts, the last of many scars;
And some were young, and suddenly beheld life's morn decline, --
And one had come from Bingen, -- fair Bingen on the Rhine.

"Tell my mother that her other son shall comfort her old age;
For I was still a truant bird, that thought his home a cage.
For my father was a soldier, and even as a child
My heart leaped forth to hear him tell of struggles fierce and wild;
And when he died, and left us to divide his scanty hoard,
I let them take whate'er they would, -- but kept my father's sword;
And with boyish love I hung it where the bright light used to shine
On the cottage wall at Bingen, -- calm Bingen on the Rhine.

"Tell my sister not to weep for me, and sob with drooping head,
When the troops come marching home again with glad and gallant tread,
But to look upon them proudly, with a calm and steadfast eye,
For her brother was a soldier too, and not afraid to die;
And if a comrade seek her love, I ask her in my name
To listen to him kindly, without regret or shame,
And to hang the old sword in its place (my father's sword and mine)
For the honor of old Bingen, -- dear Bingen on the Rhine.

"There's another, -- not a sister: in the happy days gone by
You'd have known her by the merriment that sparkled in her eye;
Too innocent for coquetry, -- too fond for idle scorning, --
O friend! I fear the lightest heart makes sometimes heaviest mourning!
Tell her the last night of my life (for, ere the moon be risen,
My body will be out of pain, my soul be out of prison), --
I dreamed I stood with her, and saw the yellow sunlight shine
On the vine-clad hills of Bingen, -- fair Bingen on the Rhine.

"I saw the blue Rhine sweep along, -- I heard, or seemed to hear,
The German songs we used to sing, in chorus sweet and clear;
And down the pleasant river, and up the slanting hill,
The echoing chorus sounded, through the evening calm and still;
And her glad blue eyes were on me, as we passed, with friendly talk,
Down many a path beloved of yore, and well-remembered walk!
And her little hand lay lightly, confidingly, in mine, --
But we'll meet no more at Bingen, -- loved Bingen on the Rhine."

His trembling voice grew faint and hoarse, -- his grasp was childish weak, --
His eyes put on a dying look, -- he sighed, and ceased to speak;
His comrade bent to lift him, but the spark of life had fled, --
The soldier of the Legion in a foreign land is dead;
And the soft moon rose up slowly, and calmly she looked down
On the red sand of the battle-field, with bloody corses strown;
Yet calmly on that dreadful scene her pale light seemed to shine,
As it shone on distant Bingen, -- fair Bingen on the Rhine.

Caroline Norton

ps : Well I have posted this in the rememberance of all the soldiers who died during the war and came back home in coffins. All the soldiers would wish to say somethings to their loved ones before their last breath but I am sure nearly 95% died without whispering a word.This lucky soldier manage to say some words of love before he died. RIP !!

Sunday 17 May 2009

Thank you Oh lord..

Oh lord,thank you very much for blessing me to see the sun and moon today for i am so lucky i am still breathing now.
Oh lord,thank you very much for giving me such a wonderful family
* A father that never say no to every words of mine, who have always been supporting me during my up's and down's and working day and night to make sure that he gives me the best of alls.
*A mother that is very good that I have no words to describe her.A very hardworking and wonderful woman.She is quite a funny woman also.hehe.
*My brothers...life of my life.
~Shandramogan,Sridaran and Sasidaran~
I am speechless.I will never trade my brothers for anyone in this life.EVER!!.The best of the best.My brothers are the priceless thing in my life.Happiness or sadness we will be together forever.
*Friends.Have a great lots of them.
Oh lord,thank you very much for blessing me every single way.I know oh lord that nothing is permenant but thank you for I am still blessed with all.
Oh lord,thank you very much.

Saturday 9 May 2009

" PREMA "

On mother’s day special and in the honour of my beloved aunty Pupathy Gurusamy “1.September.1951 – 24.September.2006”, I would like to broach somewords about her today.

“PREMA” it’s the way I call her but the actual pronunciation is “PERIYAMMA” means big mother. Since I had some tough time in pronouncing, I ended up calling her “PREMA”. She was born in a family with 4 siblings, she being eldest and my mom being youngest they shared a special bond. My mom always tells me that my aunty is more like a mother than sister to her. Not to mention, the age between them is 8 years. Come to think about it now, after all 8 years is not a big age gap. Well try to turn back the time to the 50’s and 60’s, 8 year is tongued-tied. My mom was barely 10 years old when my aunt got married.:).

A year later , aunt gave birth to her 1st baby “ Sumathi”, 2 years later to twin baby girls “ Indrani and Jayarani ” and her only son “Asai” the following year. Surviving as a young mother of 4 kids was very challenging and hard-hitting those time. The one thing that always made me proud of her is that she worked diligently as a rubber tapper in the morning and factory worker later on. She did this to provide her kids a good education and bringing up her life to better stage. Gladly now, I would tell that she survived the up’s and down’s of life and her spirit is unbreakable.

Life goes on smooth and steady for years with happiness and success. As times flies, she is getting grey-haired and ended up suffering Diabetic. In the year 2002, she lost her eldest daughter and followed by her only son 3 months later. It’s been unendurable for her losing two of her most precious kids in a very short duration. As she was trying her best to live her life from the pain she lost her husband of 35 years less than a year from her son’s death.

The day is still fresh in my mind seeing her crying and telling us how much my uncle meant in her life and how much she loved him and of course so on telling us that and this while looking at the coffin. I was standing beside her with tears running down my cheek without a single word out. Unexpectedly my aunt turn to me and said “ Baby, ask your uncle to come back? Why he left me? What am I going to do without him? I was just too dumbstruck that I couldn’t say a word at all. Losing my big uncle means we have lost the head of the family. It was too unbearable. At the one moment I knew my aunt’s world have turn upside down. Losing loved ones, its speechless.

After the death of my uncle, my aunt always travel from seremban to kl to stay with us. We already convince her to stay in kl with us but she still insist to have the house in seremban. She spends 3weeks in kl and 1 week in seremban. I understand the house is the only memory of my uncle and my cousins so we decided to give her sometime to settle. Having her most of the time is the one of our happiest moment. All the jokes and the political things that she used to say still lingering in my mind. As the youngest granddaughter in my mom’s side I am always being pampered the most by her .My aunt knows all my favourites and my dislikes too. She is of course my big mother. If mom scolds me or say anything my aunt is always by my side supporting me like an angel.hehe.That make me being slightly naughty.:).

There was this one time where she has to go to seremban for her check-up which was 2 days before my 18th birthday. I was kind of sad because she was here for all my family member’s birthday and when it comes to mine she wasn’t here. Surprisingly on the 8th June she called me sharp 12 o’clock to wish me birthday. I was shocked and I asked prema you haven’t sleep yet is it? look at the time now. Its really late because for a diabetic patient when they are up late they tend to be hungry especially my aunt who takes her medicine late. She replied baby, I slept off already but I put the alarm on 11.55pm so that I can wish you birthday. I laughed I say aiyo prema why were you troubling yourself ,you could just call me tomorrow. She said NO, I want to be the 1st person to wish you. I replied her thank you so much for calling me and laughed while telling her that she is not the 1st person to call. She also laughed and then said well better luck next time for me and she said next birthday I will call you earlier than this and we hanged up the phone after saying good night. The truth until today I didn’t tell her that she was the 1st person to wish and tears were running down my cheek when I hanged up the phone that night.

The next years mother’s day we paid her a surprise visit with strawberry ice-cream cake and her mother’s day gift, a leather handbag. She was so happy and excited to see us there. I was only relieved after seeing her because she wasn’t answering the phone calls the whole day because she was upset her twin daughters didn’t pay her a visit. Well which mother won’t be angry right.:)

Days went to months and to years. During one of the holiday, we went to India together and of course that was the last holiday we went together. We lost her on the 24th Sep 2006. She died in her sleep.This is when my world went into dark. Losing her was too unbelievable. SPEECHLESS !! I couldn’t utter a word on her funeral day. I cried and cried for days and months. I lost my big mother. The woman that I adored the most and the regret that I carrying till today is I never once told her “ I LOVE U,PREMA”

Thinking of why I didn’t tell her that I loved her so much maybe because I suppose she would know I love her from what ever I do. From celebrating mother’s day, her birthday, following her to the market, fetching her and sending her to KTM, call her always and talk to her when she is not around in kl.Most of all, I spend a lot of time with her. Every single time I meet her I will hug and kiss her. No matter where we meet. WHERE EVER !!!.She should know I love her but why there is a feel of guilt deep down in my heart.

WHY? I know why just that I am avoiding the truth. Truth is sometimes very hard to believed or agreed. I regret every seconds of the 3 years that has past is that I didn’t tell her I LOVE HER SO MUCH ! I didn’t tell her that is a very special person in my life. Why was it so tough for me to say ‘ I LOVE YOU ’ to her when I can use them on my friends or my boyfriend. Why is it so tough to say the word “LOVE” on family members?

To my friends,who have just read this please do tell your mother, father, brothers, sisters, friends or your loved ones.Tell them YOU LOVE THEM .Don’t be a fool like me sitting down crying and regretting.There is no point for me to do that now because eventhough I cried blood my aunt won’t come back. Appreaciate them and love them.

PS: Please do not think what will happen if your loved ones are not here tomorrow but Please think this way, “What will happen if I am not around tomorrow?” Have u said enough to them?

“ TO MY PREMA I WILL LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND FORGIVE ME FOR THE MISTAKES OR WORDS THAT I MIGHT HAVE USED BEFORE THAT HURTS YOU. I AM SO SORRY DIDN’T TELL YOU THIS WHEN YOU WERE STILL AROUND.HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY PREMA. REST IN PEACE”

~ Love BABY ~

Sunday 3 May 2009

my world !!!

Hello friends..A very big welcome to my blog..since i am going to crap alot..
just take it easy and read it okay.
Enjoy it my friends..:)